Blessed

I feel so very, very blessed. I know that Heavenly Father answers prayers. I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, and I was able to find a job--within a week after my old job closed. I'll be working at Veg Prep at my university--basically chopping up vegetables and prepping hot entrees and other salads for catering. I was so worried that I wouldn't find a job before I left for Disney World this fall for my internship, but I'm so glad that I was blessed.

This Thing We Call the Internet

So I haven't got on the internet since Saturday simply because my computer wasn't on and I was too lazy to turn it on. Getting on this morning I checked my email to find my inbox flooded (normally I stay on top of it and it's never bad at all), my facebook account hacked from Singapore (don't worry, facebook froze my account until I verified that I am who I am--after a very large questionaire and a password change, I'm fine), and a job interview from one of the places I applied too (good thing I can stop by today sometime, but that means I have to go back to my apartment to change into something more interview appropiate, my t-shirt and jeans that I'm wearing just won't cut it). Isn't crazy that you can disappear from the cyber world for 3 days and already I'm so behind on all of my stuff. Oh well.

On a happier note: the royal wedding is this weekend and all of my roommates are getting up at 4:30 in the morning to watch it. Doesn't that sound like fun?

Celebration!

I just got a half tuition scholarship for next year! Woot!

Because I Love Beautiful Things

I went to talk to the head costume designer today about being a costume designer. I've been thinking about changing my major lately and I've been playing around with the idea of being a costume designer. She said that chances are I would have to get a masters degree to really go far in the field, but the job is fairly marketable though doesn't pay really well. She gave me some things to do this summer in the costume shop at my university for some experience. But then she asked me a question to help in my indecisiveness: Can you imagine doing anything else?

If I love it enough I can make it work, right? I honestly can't really think of anything that would make me happier. I don't want to sit behind a desk all day, writing and editing papers, as was my original life plan. I want to go out there and create things. But I'm scared. Scared of going against what I've wanted for so long -- though I don't know if I want it anymore. Scared of putting myself and my designs out there and being shut down. Scared of the lack of stability that, if I don't play my cards right, can happen. Scared of the acting classes that I'll have to take as part of the major. Scared of doing anything else.

I'm glad for my eight month long break so I can figure my life out.